What a weary day

So today I found out my Mother passed away last Oct. The reason I didn't know at the time is because we didn't keep in contact. She was a drug and alcohol addict for the past 30 years and didn't raise me. But we kept in touch my whole life. She always called on my birthday and wrote letters. But in the last few years she became really mentally unstable. I don't think she even understood who she was anymore or what she wanted for herself. She gave birth to 4 children, me included. I don't know what to say. My heart is definitely broken.. and I am saddened she died without me there. But I don't think I could have handled that. I pray she was at peace when she passed. I will miss her and will hold onto the good memories I do have of her.


I love you mommy...04/07/1958-10/26/2008